Written by: Pat Alger, Larry Bastian, Garth Brooks
Just the other night a hometown football game
My wife nd I ran into my old high school flame
And as I introduced them the past came back to me
And I couldn't help but think of the way things used to be
She was the one that I'd wanted for all times
And each night I'd spend prayin' that God would make her mine
And if he'd only grant me this wish I wished back then
I'd never ask for anything again
Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
She wasn't quite the angel that I remembered in my dreams
And I could tell that time had changed me
Inn her eyes too it seemed
We tried to talk about the old days
There wasn't much we could recall
I guess the Lord knows what he's doin' after all
And as she walked away and I looked at my wife
And then and there I thankedd the good Lord
For the gifts in my life
Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he may not answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
Some of God's greatest gifts are all too often unanswered...
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
Over this past year, I believe, I have done and been through more than in any other year of my life. God has been good to me.
One of the graduation speakers I heard this year said something that I really like. She said something along the lines of; life is not where you are, but what you’ve been through to get there.
Here is a little of what I’ve done and been through, when I was 21.
- Turned 21 on June 6th 2007
- Went out with friends and family
- Started to look for and found roommates to move in with me in September
- Started to clean out my grandparent’s house
- 1st Fathers Day without my grandpa Brice (Dad’s dad)
- Cleaned out grandparent’s house
- Started to Play Volleyball with the Spanish Youth Group at Church
- Went to Guatemala to visit my sister, Nancy (1st time out of the country)
- Was in Guatemala visiting my sister, helping her with school
- Painted Grandparent’s house
- Moved into my grandparent’s old house, now my house
- Went to Hume Lake
- Was at Hume Lake
- Started my second semester at CSULB
- Met some new friends
- Jonah’s goodbye party (He’s in the Navy)
- Volleyball tournament at church (end of Volleyball nights)
- Started going to Deaf Events again
- Helped with Keep Downey Beautiful
- House sitting for two dogs
- Started Leadership at church
- Took on challenge to read the whole Bible.
- Was in a Hit a Run. (Back of my car smashed)
- Helped family I house sit for on Halloween
- Helped with Operation Christmas Child
- Helped with sign ups for Kidz Play
- House sitting for two dogs
- Thanksgiving with family
- Got my car back from the shop
- Join the Golden Key Honor society
- Helped at birthday parties.
- Nancy visits from Guatemala
- Help Nancy raise money for her and High School students in Guatemala
- Help with Grandma’s Christmas Party, and others
- Finals (3.75 GPA for the semester)
- Christmas with family
- Started supporting a Guatemala High School Student
- Started a new relationship (my first)
- Nancy went back to Guatemala
- Started Friday night Prayer
- Started Refereeing at Kidz Play on Saturdays (first time refereeing)
- Started the Spring Semester at CSULB
- Met new friends
- Refereeing at Kidz Play on Saturdays
- Got the Stomach Flu
- Was in Urgent care on Valentines Day, my first IV
- Went to ER for an allergic reaction to the medication doctors gave me. (I couldn’t breath)
- Started a one on one discipleship
- Relationship Ended
- Refereeing at Kidz Play (worst day reefing)
- Car totaled by Hit and Run while parked in front of my house (got it fixed anyway)
- Emotional break down
- Help with LA Breakers game
- Last day of Kidz Play
- LA Zoo (Got to be in with some of the animals thanks to my Cousin)
- Clipper Game with Dad (1st time at a pro game)
- Nancy comes and visits for weekend
- My Cousin’s Wedding
- Spring Break (party)
- Met New Pastor
- Helped pack bagels for a sermon
- Refereeing at Staples Center, on Clipper floor, for Kidz Play
- Renaissance Faire
- Grandma Lawson Died (Mom’s mom)
- Nancy comes in from Guatemala
- Grandma’s Funeral
- Had the Pastor’s Family over for Dinner, and to meet Nancy
- Nancy goes back to Guatemala
- Friend moves away
- First Mother’s Day without Grandma Lawson
- Jonah visits from the Navy
- Got my car back from the shop, again
- Finals (4.0 GPA for the semester)
- Roommates and Friends Graduations
- Finished reading the Bible (on June 1st)
- Friends Graduations
- Lost 30 pounds over the past year (60 pounds over the past 2 years)
-Turned 22 on June 6th 2008
There were a lot of firsts and I’m sure they won’t be the last.
Bring on the next year of my life!
(I’ve been writing this for a while, and I’ve been trying to make it perfect, but that’s never going to happen so here it is. It started as a blog but ended up being more like a sermon at the end. )
I am tried, I am weak, I am shaking, and I am going crazy. Why oh why does everything happen in my family all at once?
My grandma died. The most wonderful, spiritual, holy woman in my life has gone home to be with her maker. It hurts.
I am sad: I will not see her again in tell I die (in a long time I hope), I don’t get to talk to her anymore, my role model is not here anymore to go to, my hero who I want to be like, because she was like Christ, is gone.
And yet, I am happy: she is no longer suffering, she’s in heaven, she is with my grandpa (her husband), and she could be no place better than with the Lord.
My grandmother is one of the best Christian women I know.
God pointed out a verse to me that is a great example of my grandmother. Philippians 1:21 “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.” This is my grandmother; “For to Virginia Lawson, to live is Christ and to die is gain.” How many people can you truly say that about?! Wow!
She truly lived a life for Christ, and now that she has passed away she has gained more than anyone can ever imagine.
I may spend nights crying, but it’s not for my grandmother. My grandmother is in heaven singing praises to the Lord, and couldn’t be happier; nothing to cry about there. I cry only for myself and the ones left behind. I am allowed to grieve, and celebrate at the same time.
I have to say a little bit about God’s timing in my life over the past few years. God is good. Over the past couple of years all four of my grandparents have died. The first to go home was my Grandpa Lawson (2/4/06). The next was my Grandma Brice, and then my Grandpa Brice, and now my Grandma Lawson.
Every time one of my grandparents has gone home to be with the lord, besides my family (my family is always there for me), my friends have been there to help me through. Once it was a weekend play with friends, once it was the apple pie party, then there was paintball, and this time it was the Renaissance Faire. Every time I had a nice weekend right before, or shortly after, to be with my support system of friends (two in particular).
Wow, just look at God’s timing in my life. Whenever there were tuff times ahead, God made it so that friends and family were near to help me through.
Galatians 6: 2 “Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.”
I have been trying to open up more to my friends about times when I am in need, and when I have burdens on my heart. My favorite song for years has been; Lean On Me, and yet I’ve always thought about that song where I was the one singing it, telling friends I’m there and that they can lean on me. However, lately I have been trying to see it from the other point of view. That I can really go to my friends, I can swallow my pride and ask for help (Brice’s don’t like asking for help, we are stubborn).
I am a really, really private person. I don’t open up easily and am not the kind of person to call up a friend to ask for anything or talk about something I’m struggling with. Most of the time, I need to be asked to share what’s going on in my life, I’m not good at taking that first step. Even then I don’t like talking about myself; I rather listen to what others have to say.
This being said, there was a sermon I really liked that my old pastor preached on. It was all about risk. He preached on Luke 9: 23-24: “Then he (Jesus) said to them all: “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it.” And I would also like to add Luke 14:27 “And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.”
Being a Christian means taking risks. Being a disciple means taking risks. You will get hurt; not you might, you will. You will have to put yourself out there. You will have to trust people, you will be betrayed, and you will get hurt. But, you will advance the kingdom of God, and you will be rewarded in heaven. Not everyone will cross you, there are those who can be trusted if you would only give them the chance, swallow your pride and ask for help, share your pain, and open your heart. Learn to love one another with a Christ like love. Yeah you could get hurt, but in the end it’s worth the risk.
In the past couple weeks; I have been through a lot. I have been exhausted physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally. I am still on this emotional rollercoaster. I have gone out on a limb and shared my burden with a few people and asked them for prayer. In this past week, I have experienced moments of peace and calm amongst the storm where I knew the only reason could be is that someone was praying for me. God is good. Thank you to those of you who have been praying for me, and are continuing to pray for me. You are showing me a love like Christ, and I am truly grateful to have you in my life.
God wants us to love one another:
Romans 12: 10 “Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.”
Ephesians 4: 2 “Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.”
John 13: 34-35 “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”
I can go on and on about just how much God wants us to love others. Why is it so hard for people to do this, and why are Christians not doing this? If we really do love each other we would not have all the problems we have today. If you love someone, you care about them. Caring for someone means going well beyond the “how are you?” you ask someone when first see them. It means really doing all you can for that person (even if it’s not much). If means giving of yourself and putting others before you. We are so selfish, we are so blind to others, and we are so self-severing because we are so wrapped up in ourselves. STOP IT! God does not want this! God wants us to have the heart of a servant, to put others before ourselves, to LOVE ONE ANOTHER! He commands us to love one another. He does not ask, he commands. If God commands you to do something, you must do it.
Again read; Romans 12: 10, Ephesians 4: 2 and John 13: 34-35. Read them slowly and ask God to open your heart to there meanings. Now read;
1 John 4: 7-8; “Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.”
Wow. Everyone who loves knows God? Wow. If you do not love, you do not know God? Wow. We should love one another for love comes from God. Don’t we want to be loved my God? Don’t we want others to be loved by God? Shouldn’t we love others just like Christ loves us? Why don’t we? Open your hearts, and start caring and loving one another.
Wow, April is almost half gone.
Ok. Everyone seams to not be on lj anymore, sad. But whatever, maybe everyone has been crazy busy like me. That being said, when I get some more time there are a few things I want to be doing on here. Or on some kind of journal or something.
Now I go to study Math, and after that, Phil. FUN! @.@
I'm in a weird mood right now. I need to study.
I just finished reffing kids and adults for 2 hours at Staples Center. It was so mush fun, and I am sooooooooooooooooo tired.
- I Feel:tired
One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.
Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.
It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.
That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.
On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me so much,' were most of the comments.
No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on.
Several years later, one of the students was killed in VietNam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature.
The church was packed with his friends. One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin. The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.
As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her. 'Were you Mark's math teacher?' he asked. She nodded: 'yes.' Then he said: 'Mark talked about you a lot.'
After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.
'We want to show you something,' his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket 'They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it.'
Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.
'Thank you so much for doing that,' Mark's mother said. 'As you can see, Mark treasured it.'
All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, 'I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home.'
Chuck's wife said, 'Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.'
I have mine too,' Marilyn said.
'It's in my diary'
Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group.
'I carry this with me at all times,' Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: 'I think we all saved our lists'
That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.
The density of peo ple in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.
So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late..
And One Way To Accomplish This Is: Forward this message on. If you do not send it, you will have, once again passed up the wonderful opportunity to do some thing nice and beautiful. But its upto U to fwd this one.
If you've received this, it is because someone cares for you and it means there is probably at least someone for whom you care.
If you're 'too busy' to take those few minutes right now to forward this message on, would this be the VERY first time you didn't do that little thing that would make a difference in your relationships?
The more people that you send this to, the better you'll be at reaching out to those you care about.
remember, you reap what you sow. What you put into the lives of others comes back into your own.
May Your Day Be Blessed As Special As You
Great message - Take a look at Galatians 6:9 & 10 And the encouragement that Paul stresses in pressing on in doing well to one another.
This year started out great!
The first month was so awesome.
I was happy.
And then came the second month came and the 3rd...
And with them came;
the worst week ever...
the driving myself crazy...
the worst weekend ever...
the loss of a relationship...
the my car getting totaled by a drunk driver...
and you know what....
I'm tired of it! Bring on the 4th! What else is going to get thrown at me?!
The last part of this month should be fun though:
LA Clipper Game
My sister, Nancy, comes home for Rhonda's wedding
My cuz Rhonda's Wedding
And the first day of Spring Break!
I haven't given up on 2008 yet! Bring it on!
I have been through sooooo much!
God is not going to put me through anything I can't handle with Him.
And you know what?!
I've learned that I can handle a lot!
1. I've come to realize that:
No matter how good you are, life isn't fair.
2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
few listen, but those who do are better off for it... and I am too.
3. I've come to realize that, when I love someone:
I can only hope they'll love me back.
4. I've come to realize that I need:
to be wanted.
5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
some great things in life.
6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
then I must have gone off the deep end, because I don't drink.
8. I've come to realize that money:
can change a person, and that money is not a source of happiness.
9. I've come to realize that people:
are all loved by God, even if they don't love Him back.
10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
loved by God.
11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
the idea of being loved.
12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was:
13. I've come to realize that my cell phone is:
not always my friend.
14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning:
I knew it was going to be a long day.
15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night:
God will listen to me.
16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
too many things.
17. I've come to realize that babies:
are always in need of someone to love them.
18. I've come to realize that when I get on Myspace:
most of my time will be a waste, but for a few mintues I may make someones day.
19. I've come to realize that today I will:
get through only by God's grace.
20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
run everything through my head again.
21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
go through the motions, and hopefully learn something.
22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
I have had just about the most rotten a week a person can have, and still be breathing, and I had problems with that. Here is a little run through of my bad week, it all stated last Tuesday:
Tuesday 2/12: Woke up, throw up, drove to school, throw up right after I parked, walk to class, take a quiz (which is why I went to school). Went to my math 320 class. Drove home and went to bed.
Wednesday 2/13: Woke up, throw up, went back to sleep, missed class, woke up, went back to sleep.
Thursday 2/14: Woke up, throw up, missed classes, called mom, mom came and took me to her house then to hospital. Throw up in waiting room at hospital. Saw doctor, got poked several times; shot, i.v., and blood work.
Friday 2/15: Sleep, take drugs, sleep, call prayer team to tell them I'm not coming.
Saturday 2/16: Missed out on Kidz Play and cuz's wedding shower, tried to to homework, watch tv.
Sunday 2/17: Missed out on Church and wrap up. Took drugs doctor gave me for the second time, had an allergic reaction to it. Toung and throught swelled to where I couldn't breath through my mouth, and barely through my nose. Mom drove me to emergency, they poked my a few more times (nurse couldn't find a vain), and hooked me up to several things; oxygen, heart monitor, ect. About an hour later, start being able to breath again. Got back home around midnight.
Monday 2/18: Sleep. Miss 2 of my classes, do homework.
Tuesday 2/19: Missed my history class, went to math class. Find out I have both a history test and math test this Thursday. A different math test next week and a Phil test in two weeks.
With all that, I think I have the right to say I had a bad week. Well I hope that week is behind me and the next week will look better. Already I have a friend who posted a bulletin that made my day. Things are looking up.
- I Feel:sick
I've been thinking about fears and phobias, and I found this on the Fear of God. So I thought I would share:
The Fear of God
By Dr. Neil T. Anderson
Fear is the most basic instinct of every living creature. An animal without fear will become some predator’s dinner. Fear is the natural response when our physical safety and psychological well being are threatened. Rational fears are rooted in truth and something we learn for survival. Phobias are irrational fears that are rooted in false perceptions and lies. We categorize certain fears by their objects. Acrophobia is a fear of high places. Claustrophobia is a fear of enclosed places. Xenophobia is the fear of strangers, etc. In order for a fear object to be legitimate it must possess two attributes. To be feared, it must be perceived as imminent (present) and potent (powerful).
For most people, poisonous snakes are legitimate fear objects. You are probably experiencing no fear of snakes as you read this, because there are none present. You would be overcome immediately with fear if one suddenly appeared in your room, because it is potent and imminent. But if the poisonous snake in your room were dead (imminent but not potent), you wouldn’t have to fear it. A fear object is no longer legitimate if it loses just one of its attributes.
God is the ultimate fear object because He is omnipresent and omnipotent. “The Lord Almighty is the one you are to regard as holy, he is the one you are to dread, and he will be a sanctuary” (vs. 13). Normally a fear object is something or someone you want to run and hide from, but not so with God. He becomes our sanctuary when we fear Him. We revere God because we have total respect for His attributes, but the fear of God goes deeper. God has the power to judge causing the Psalmist to say; “If you, O Lord, kept a record of sins who could stand? But with you there is forgiveness; therefore you are feared” (Ps. 130:3,4). ).
It was prophesied of Jesus that, “He will delight in the fear of the Lord” (Is. 11:3). And we should too, because Jesus took our punishment upon Himself. Consequently, “There is no fear in love, But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment” (1 Jn. 4:18). Does that mean we no longer fear God? No, because, “The fear of the Lord is pure, enduring forever” (Ps. 19:9), and the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom (Ps. 111:10). The wise man fears God, because the fear of anything other than God is mutually exclusive to faith in God. He is the only fear object that eliminates all other fear objects, because nothing can be elevated above Him.
We maintain a deep reverence for God, because of who He is, and because we are accountable to Him. “So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it. For we must all appear before the judgement seat of Christ, that each one may receive what is due him for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad. Since, then, we know what it is to fear the Lord, we try to persuade men” (2 Cor. 5:9-11). Fear is a powerful motivator, and knowing that we are accountable before God should motivate us to do everything pleasing to Him.
Thought for the day: The wicked man flees though no one is pursuing, but the righteous are as bold as a lion (Proverbs 28:1). On what basis can the righteous be bold as a lion?http://www.actinternational.org/nl/2006/sept/fear_of_god.htm
Hello and welcome to my second annual friends awards. This is something special I started last year as a way to say thanks to some of my friends for everything they have done for me in the past year. I have come up with different awards for different friends, because everyone has done at lest one thing in my life this past year that I will never forget.
This year has been a little different for me overall. I started at a new school CSULB, and have met some interesting new people to go along with the new school. So this year my friends awards will be a little different from last time, but I hope old and new friends alike will enjoy them. These we'll not be as long as long as last year, but hopefully it well be short and sweet.
For Best friend, again this award goes to: Lislis
Wow! What can I say... She's my best friend. She has been there for me in both good times and bad. I love her so much, I can't pick just one thing over the past year, so I'm going to sum her up in two words; Best friend. Because I don't think it fair to only say that, I am going to pick a moment out of my random Hat... Random moment: Me having a stressfull moment and calling Lislis to go out to see Meet the Robinson's, and then end up getting locked out of her house so we went out to eat. That's a nice random moment.
Latest Christmas gift, given to me on March 31st, goes to: Brae
Again, Wow! I had to come up with something random for Brae because I did something serious for his award last year. Yeah, Brae has done a lot for me this year too, and I couldn't just pick one thing. He's a great friend who's there for me when I need him. So his random moment is giving me my Christmas gift on March 31st right before we went paint balling. That was a fun day!
Most like me award: Lilo
So sweet she has to be made of sugar, I really love Lilo. She really is the most like me. She is the one in her group of friends who; remembers everything, is prepared, takes pictures, and is responsible. Let me tell you how happy I am knowing there's another person out there like me. Wow, I'm not the only one who is responsible and can make plans of her own. She is awesome.
For being true to himself: Jonah
Jonah joined the Navy this year, and I know people have said some things to him that could be discouraging but he still did what he wanted to do. I am glade that he doesn't listen to the stupid comments about joining the Navy, and that he can see the good in it, even if others can't.
For being willing to go do anything and talk at just about anytime: Andy
It helps to have a friend when you just want to get out of the house and you can say "Hey, there's a movie starting in 10 minutes, let's go," and he'll met you there. Not to mention the random phone calls of sillyness.
For the newest good friend: Carlos
Last year this award went to Lilo, this year it goes to Carlos. I met Carlos at Hume Lake (although he has gone to some Warp Up's before that we were both at, but I don't remember meeting him there). The funny thing is we met because we both know sign language. I was signing in chapel at Hume, and Carlos saw me. He came up to me after, asking me about sign language, and we've been friends ever since.
For being a math person, and laughing about math goes to: It's a 4-way tie! It goes to: Simone, Hayley, Lori, and Michelle!
I love you math people! I have so many memories with all of them it's crazy to try to pick just one. For Lori, I love the gavel when it comes to settling arguments. Simone for her idea of the "Outlier" T-Shirt. Hayley I don't think I have ever seen her without a smile. Michelle and our interesting conversations. I will miss having math classes with you guys!
Thank you all for being there for me, again. All of you have a special place in my heart. I hope that I have a place in yours. I would love to hear from you, about your thoughts on this. I would be even more grateful if you were to tell me about someway I have made your life a little happier this year. Thanks again for being my wonderful, kind, caring, and loving friends. I wish you all the best in the new year, and hope to see you all in it.
PS: Sorry if I didn't give you an award this year, or write any memory with you in it. I have made many new friends this year, and have some wonderful memories throughout the year with all my friends. Unfortunately, I do not have the time to write them all out right now. However! If you send me a message or comment I will gladly write a memory I have of you in the year 2007.
Ok,I haven't really written anything in November or December yet, and there is a reason; I have been crazy busy. I have had midterms and finals, and extra stuff with school and church, and I had a social life this year, and my Dad went to Australia and back and my sister came home from Guatemala and I've been trying to spend all my spare time with them. So I haven't had time to sit and type out things about my life yet, so here is a little update.
My last post was about my hit and run. Well I have my car back. It took 6 weeks, and returning it once to fix one more thing to get it back but I now have my car back.
I've gone to a few deaf events with Carlos.
Thanksgiving was at my parents house where we had 3 foreign exchange students from India joining us. That was really fun.
I had several papers, projects, tests, and finals. I believe I will be getting 3 A's and one B this year.
I have done a lot more with church; wrap up, Operation Christmas Child, Downey Clean up, Leadership, and have been growing in knowledge and faith.
I have gotten to know and have spent a lot more time with my roommates.
I had 2 wonderful Christmas parties with roommates and friends.
I am off school right now, and am currently working on this years "Friends Awards" and a few other things with pictures I have taken this year.
That's it for now. Look for my new blog "Friend Awards 2" coming in a few days.